here we go
I never thought I’d be a writer. To some degree, I thought it would be interesting to write ideas down on paper that would give visuals in peoples heads of my dreamed up imagery, stories that would make people go ‘wow’, but ever since I was in school, from elementary even until college, I never felt I was ever good enough. I went from writing really easy to read concepts to feeling intimidated by others who would use big words and lengthy sentence structures, I always felt I could never match up. I went through a stage where I tried to write things to sound ‘smart’ or like I was a brilliant conservationist, but it was so hard to write ‘simply’, and not make something more than what it was. It was hard for me. I guess now I’m realizing that I should worry about what it sounds like when a reader reads your material, it should just be whats within. What points and ideas you’re wanting to convey to the reader. Not trying to win them over to by how smart you are or what sentence magic you can come up with. There is something about poetry that is special… now that is something I guess I’d spend a little more time with the creative part of my brain. Writing on the other hand, life writing, that is something I feel should be on a leven in which I will speak to a person face to face. Have you ever read a book and then talked to the author afterwords? Do they sound like you would envision them talking in the book? I don’t know, I haven’t done that examination myself, but I know there are many papers I have written that were not at all what I would sound like in real life. ha Most of my conversation consisted of the words ‘dude’ and ‘sweetness’ practically 75% of my entire vocabulary. Just kidding! 
But seriously, I really did say words like that a lot. Writing to me now is something that will come out exactly how I would talk to someone in person. So I’m going to get back into blogging. Here we go!
This blog has a purpose in mind, and that purpose is for me to speak out what the King of the universe is telling me that I just can’t help but tell the world. Truths that He is revealing to me through his Word, through life, through others. If there is one thing that me, and man who’s been a Christian for many years have totally failed at, it would be not knowing God as much as I should have. It’s amazing to live so many years having a relationship with God, and knowing that you do have new life in Him, yet not be raged with desire to know God more. I’m baffled at how easy it is to become numb to the callings from God. Him wanting us to live radically in this world, and we sit back and are absolutely satisfied with our weekly church attending routine with no attempt to go into the world, outside of our church body, and make a difference with our life. To us, we’re to afraid to take action in our daily life. We hold ourselves captive in our own doubt, insecurity, and disbelief that God truly can actually use us. Do we not pay attention in church when we talking about the ones who God used yet to them they were totally ‘unqualified’ in their own eyes. I can honestly write a book about how lazy of a servant I truly am when it comes down to the truth. I truly know there’s times when I am used by God, ministering to others. But reality is, there is more. There is more that God wants us to do, more wisdom God wants us to have, more experiences with Him, more trusting in Him, more desire to glorify Him, more passion to serve others and the list keeps on going. God is teaching me so much through his Word.
One thing I have always known in my mind, but not really wholeheartedly believed is that life here isn’t about us. It’s not about us earning a good living. It’s not about us working hard so we can have the nice things in life, or ‘give our children a good life’. It’s not about us or the things in this world. It’s about God. It’s about being servants to our God at any cost. It’s about living pure and holy. It’s about loving every person you coming in contact with. It’s about putting others ahead of ourselves. It’s about Him. It’s all about Him. If we truly want to give our children a good life, then we need to raise them to know these truths from our God. Only in Him will we have a ‘good life’. A pure, fresh life. One worth living, not worth losing.
Our King is good. The King that while thinking of everything that has ever been created, He was thinking of us as well. He loves us so much, and I know this because He has told us. Not only has He told us, but He has shown us. We live in a dark world, a world infested with darkness, sin, temptation, just plain evil. Our God came to this earth, took on the punishment for our corruption and entanglement in sin, and bared our burden for us… now because of such love, we can live in freedom, away from guilt, shame, burden, bondage… we are free with Him.
I want to share my journey with God because I know that only in His Word is where we find our answers to this rough road called life. It’s rough because of evil, not because of God. God didn’t make it this way, sin did. God has given us the strength and weapons to fight evil and be victorious. It’s up to us to choose to stand firm and seek our counselor who will direct us in the right path.
This life will be very hard at times but we do have promises from God that will get us through it. We fight for Him because He fought for us and it worthy of praise. This is an amazing verse that should give us hope when we feel weak.
1 Corinthians 10:13 (New International Version)
13″No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.”
1 Corinthians 10:13 (The Message)
13“No test or temptation that comes your way is beyond the course of what others have had to face. All you need to remember is that God will never let you down; he’ll never let you be pushed past your limit; he’ll always be there to help you come through it.”
It’s getting late and I’m about to get some rest for another day to come. I pray that we all are empowered by the Kings book of love and promises. It’s truly the only thing that keeps us alive.
Phil <><
